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Dancing breathlessly

Posted by bellachai , 17 May 2013 · 112 views

:tearsofjoy: :tearsofjoy: :tearsofjoy: :yahoo: :dancingbunny: :elefant: :puppy:

My 4 year fight has ended and I have won. Social Security Disability has been approved for me. Will be getting my settlement check going back to November 2010 mid June. My first monthly Social Security amount will be June 1st and it is an amoun...


I am scared, I am excited I am scared

Posted by bellachai , 08 May 2013 · 164 views

I received a call just a few minutes ago from the Social Security office in Denver. He stated that I did not need to go to the doctor's appointment they scheduled for me. What doctor's appointment? Apparently I have not received that request in the mail yet. He stated I did not need to go cuz they have all the information from my doctor's a...


Perception is nine thenth the rules

Posted by bellachai , 07 May 2013 · 127 views

These are the rules:

If you do not look like you have any serious illnesses then you are not ill.

If you do not do anything and/or do not work then you are lazy and worthless.

If you try real hard to be optimistic and positive then your ailments are all in your head.

If you do not look or speak in crazy ways then you do not have a mental illness and y...


Bad Form

Posted by bellachai , 05 May 2013 · 89 views

Some miracles can happen. My daughter and boyfriend went with my daughter's friend since the 3rd grade and her husband to a walk-a-thon for CAWS and the monster puppy got to go too. My daughter worked last night from 10pm till 6am babysitting an elderly wnoman who has dementia. So she was really tired but went anyway.

My daughter walked to me and...


Disappointments abounds

Posted by bellachai , 03 May 2013 · 136 views

:bawling:/> I feel as if I am surrounded by nothing but disappointment. I know they all feed off each other like I am being engulfed by fire and all the disappointments are doing a war dance all around me just waiting for me to die. I keep fighting to stay alive and I ask myself why do I keep fighting?

I had a doctors appointment with my hematologi...

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