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Like a broken record

Posted by bellachai , 11 April 2014 · 136 views

I often get things stuck in my head that I have seen, heard or read and it will go round and round like it is stuck in that mode like a broken record.  It may do that for hours, days or weeks until I either solve it, resolve it, accept it or just trash it altogether where it may relate to me or my life in some way and it can also be out of context fr...



Posted by bellachai , 10 April 2014 · 140 views

I made it all through winter without getting sick which is a first in five years.  I was managing my pain well.  I worked out a routine for my sleep times that lowered my pain levels to a manageable  state in order to actually do some things.  I was doing pretty good.
That bubble got burst as my PCP lady came to my home with a c...


The Boy Who Cried Wolf

Posted by bellachai , 15 March 2014 · 130 views

Notes to myself:
Sometimes miracles do happen.
Sometimes wishes are granted.
Sometimes prayers are answered.
Sometimes liars tell the truth.
There is always hope.
The agency my daughter's boyfriend is with finally did send him to Wyoming to work an oil field.  He took another guy from here as the guy did not...


Ruined Life

Posted by bellachai , 19 February 2014 · 141 views

I was reading an article about the sentencing of a predator.  The very brave survivor, now an adult stood up and stated he had ruined her life from what horrors he did to her as a child.  The judge also spoke to the predator and said the same that his actions ruined her life.
Then the Judge sentenced him to 7 years in jail.  So...


I knew it ! :(

Posted by bellachai , 17 February 2014 · 136 views

It appears that my daughter's boyfriend is still a poser and a liar in regards to his obtaining an oil field job in Wyoming.  Knowing this does not give me any pleasure only much sorrow and anger.
This story began on February 6th. He showed us a hard hat and gloves stating they had given them to him for this job.  I also saw a paper they...


Poser BS?

Posted by bellachai , 11 February 2014 · 155 views

I sit here in my living room with sleeping pets keeping me company.  It is a peaceful sight yet inside my head there is only turmoil and thinking and wondering.
I see my daughter's boyfriend's packed duffle bag with clothes she washed for him  There are sacks of food on the table for this job in Pinedale Wyoming.  I...



Posted by bellachai , 05 February 2014 · 154 views

Finally my daughter boyfriend got a job.  Better yet it is in the oil fields.  Good money.  Yahoo!!!!
I know he isn't lying or making it up cuz he brought home a hard hat and work gloves supplied by his new employer.
My daughter is sad cuz the job is in Wyoming.  He will work 5 12 hour shifts then has 5 days off.  Ni...


Insult to Injury

Posted by bellachai , 02 February 2014 · 207 views

I have a bad habit of forgetting to turn off my oxygen machine when I get up in the morning.  I did remember yesterday morning to turn it off.  Sometime in the middle of the night I woke with a pounding headache which usually means I am not getting enough oxygen.  In the dark I see the machine is not on at all (my oxygen is fed through the...


Little Ironies of Life

Posted by bellachai , 01 February 2014 · 148 views

My dad was a recovering alcoholic.  At the time of his death he had been alcohol free for 33 years.  He went to one AA meeting, did not like it so never went again.  He just stopped drinking.  My mother remarried him knowing he was drinking but after a couple of years she got fed up.  She went to many AL-ANON meetings telling ever...


The Fight

Posted by bellachai , 25 January 2014 · 150 views

I have procrastinated blogging the fight I started last week with my daughter and her boyfriend the day after the ex-husband/cell phone to do.
Around Christmas time my daughter and her boyfriend thought it might be a good idea to get a companion for the monster puppy cuz he is eight now and needs to be excersized to remain happy and healthy. ...

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