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Not Coping Well

13 April 2013
Posted by bellachai  
I am not managing my pain and depression lately.

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I had a dream

11 April 2013
Posted by bellachai  
I woke this morning remembering what I at first thought was a good dream. I dreamed I was on therit Oregon Coast; my favorite place to be, collecting agates, sea shells and star fish. I was staying in a very small community. This community was going broke and they needed revenue so they decided to charge a fee on anything found on the beach. I...
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Pain in the Neck

04 April 2013
Posted by bellachai  
literally my neck pain has progressively gotten worse since I fell and broke my arm and ankle.

I know it is not from the fibromyalgia cuz my meds for that do not the pain. I cannot take ibroprophen or tynenol due to the blood thinners. I cannot walk around with a heating pad on it all the time. I called my primary doctor leaving a message with...
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Purposes

03 April 2013
Posted by bellachai  
Having purposes is the reason for staying alive. Before my meltdown and my health failing I had many purposes to living my life.

I know that control is an illusion. One cannot MAKE anyone do anything unless blackmail is a factor especially emotional blackmail. That is game I never played but I did control myself in all things.

I know there...
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My Sister

25 March 2013
Posted by bellachai  
We are not close. Sadly she is my only sibling. She is only 13 months younger than I. Both of us were accidents. I have very few memories of us being close. We were/are strangers to each other.

Perhaps we were close before I turned 5. My mother ran off with the evil stepfather and married him as soon as her divorce from my Dad was final. ...
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Chronically weary

21 March 2013
Posted by bellachai  
I blew off two doctor's appointments this week. My hematologist this last Tuesday and internist yesterday. I also was supposed to go to the hospital lab before these appointment for blood work. I told my mother, my daughter and her boyfriend last week and again this last Monday.

No one offered to go with me nor have any of them asked how...
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A Rough Couple of Days

20 March 2013
Posted by bellachai  
The gas/heat was shut off yesterday and it is 36 degrees in my house. I am cold. My daughter's boyfriend opened the account. I applied for assistance and was granted it but it does not pay for all of it. Not enough money to pay for it.

Still waiting for Social Security disability.

My daughter gets paid for 8.5 hours a week for my...
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One fairly recent and one years ago.

I took my mother yesterday to have an endoscopy. We had to drive to the bigger town of Grand Junction which is around 54 miles. It was a clinic/surgercenter that only does endoscopys and colonoscopys.

I sat with her in her prep room. I became uncomfortable and felt like I might have a panic attack (I...
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Pain in the Neck

11 March 2013
Posted by bellachai  
in more ways than one!

A very sweet and special person here reminded me that I have not blogged in some time. I believe she was also reminding me that blogging has helped me in the past. She is correct.

I have been lurking here reading. Since my computer exploded I have been sharing my daughter's computer with her and her boyfriend so...
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Alone at last

26 January 2013
Posted by bellachai  
My daughter and her boyfriend spend most of their time in their room since they moved their TV and Xbox out of my livingroom. I no longer have to watch the boyfriend play such violent games with tempertantrum thrown in from time to time.

Occationally my duaghter is generous with letting me use her computer like now since mine blew up. It does...
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