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Posted by blondie2002   in Life In general
I'm tired of feeling like nothing ever wants to go my way, :down:/> Example #1: I haven't had a job since 2008, and I've gone through VocRehab (it helps people with disabilities find work) I can't count how many times, with little success. :down:/> So, I don't really have much to keep my busy outside...
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Posted by blondie2002   in Friends, Life In general
I was talking to J**** (my apartment manager) yesterday about possibly moving to different apartment within the complex because of my ptsd, (the apartments are the only subsidized ones in my area)and he unfortuneately said that non are available. (Which I kinda figured that, but I had to ask.) Then somehow we got on the subject of me likeing...
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Posted by blondie2002   in Life In general
I'm so tired of feeling so f***ing dependant on people. I can't even get the basics I need on my own. I'm trying not to let it bother me, since I know plenty of people that can't really get around that well either. Then to make matters "worse", I hung up on my grandma out of frustration. I called back and apologized to...
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Posted by blondie2002   in Life In general
When my T first told me that he thinks I'm makeing amazeing progress in my healing from what B did to me. I was :unsure:/> at first but after I thought about it, I realized that he was right. Example #1: I've been able to be around J**** for an extended period of time and not freak out, because I know he wouldn't intentionally do...
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Posted by blondie2002   in Dateing
Well after a false start, my stepdad and his friend finally managed to get his son B** and I together, and um B** asked for my number and I gave it to him. (I know what you're probably thinking, but unlike B***, B** "isn't" a complete stranger.) We talked for a little bit this morning, and he asked me out for this comeing...
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Posted by blondie2002   in Dateing
Well after a false start, my stepdad and his friend finally managed to get his son B** and I together, and um B** asked for my number and I gave it to him. (I know what you're probably thinking, but unlike B***, B** "isn't" a complete stranger.) We talked for a little bit this morning, and he asked me out for this comeing...
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Posted by blondie2002  
6 yrs ago this month, I went on a date with a physco (although I didn't know he was at the time :down:). So because of what he put me through, I feel I've been trapped in my depression and lonliness. :gaah: I'm wanting so badly to escape.

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I told my bff T, how my ex C (for those that don't know, C and I broke up way before B entered my life and turned it upside down)tried to get back together with me shortly after finding out I was r***d.Unfortuneatly he couldn't handle it, (he didn't use those exact words)and he decided he "wasn't ready for a girlfriend"....
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Posted by blondie2002  
I don't feel as nervous about being alone with J (the manager of my apt) now that I've told him I'm a **** survivor. I asked if the wallpaper underneath the kitchen sink was something that was possibly going to be replaced, and he asked if he could come in and take a look and I said yes. So in a nutshell, I was alone with him for maby...
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I have the worse luck

25 April 2012
Posted by blondie2002   in Dateing
Everytime I read status updates about how my friends' husbands and/or wives did these nice romantic gestures for them, I start feeling envious and wondering if I'm ever going to have that. At the same time I know their lives aren't perfect, case in point my friend J is going on her 2nd marriage and my friend B is headed for divorce ...
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