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It's been a long time since I logged on to Pandys. It's been a long time since I wrote a blog. It's been a long time since I've been alright. I've been seeing a T at the school I go to. I thought it was helping but I feel like I'm getting worse.
I hardly eat or sleep. I don't sleep because I'm afraid of nightmares. I can't drive around town without having a memory, flashback, or actually feel like I'm reliving the times when I was attacked.
I have to work so hard everyday just so smile and be okay. To not show everyone I'm not hurting. Two years have passed but it doesn't feel like it's been more than a week. I feel like I've lost hope that things will get better. That they'll just be like this forever.
I hardly eat or sleep. I don't sleep because I'm afraid of nightmares. I can't drive around town without having a memory, flashback, or actually feel like I'm reliving the times when I was attacked.
I have to work so hard everyday just so smile and be okay. To not show everyone I'm not hurting. Two years have passed but it doesn't feel like it's been more than a week. I feel like I've lost hope that things will get better. That they'll just be like this forever.
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I'm sorry your having a hard time dealing with your flashbacks and feelings. It's a difficult process to confront. I do hope you find your own way to cope with this and be able to instead of pretend to be okay really feel like you are. I also hope you take care :hug: .