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Posted by missophelia , 07 June 2010 · 70 views

Today has been good. I had my session, then I stopped at the mall. A didnít want to come with me--I had to leave the house at 6:45 this morning. I wished sheíd been with me, though. I donít like going to the mall alone. But, I found a cute top in the clearance rack, and bought myself a necklace.

Dr H and I talked at length about how Iím feeling. A...


anger and frustration

Posted by missophelia , 06 June 2010 · 38 views

It seems like today was a long day. I was up early, to the laundromat. After I got the laundry done, I got the last of my cleaning done. Put all the rest of the trash outside, then took a look around the house.

It looks pretty good. I have a little light dusting to do, but what Iíve done makes me happy. It makes me feel a lot less cluttered, and lik...


hate and fear

Posted by missophelia , 05 June 2010 · 27 views

Luckily Iíve been able to get my mind away from thinking about the dark thoughts Iíve realized inside me. I spent a good part of the day finishing with all of the cleaning out Iíve been doing.

By tomorrow, Iíll be all done.

It feels good. Iíve gotten rid of a bunch of stuff, and I feel a little lighter by just getting all of that junk gone.

And I fin...


scared of my dark side

Posted by missophelia , 04 June 2010 · 60 views

I was reading over some of my past blogs. I was looking for one in particular that I wanted to print out and take with me Monday. As I was looking, I stopped at the blog I wrote after my last session.

We talked about my rescripting, and about some other things, like anyone I could have told about that night behind the building. We also touched some on...


at least I tried

Posted by missophelia , 03 June 2010 · 105 views

I ran to Target this afternoon, to pick up some ink cartridges for my printer. I want to print a couple of my blogs out, and possibly take one of them to Dr H. I also picked up a couple of other things, and found a nice hoodie, which I needed.

It wasnít too busy in the store, but there was still a little bit of a line. As I was standing in line, this...


trying to take care of myself

Posted by missophelia , 02 June 2010 · 53 views

I didnít do much today. In fact, I just woke up a little while ago from a nap. Iím not feeling well.

Dealing with the pain Iím having is tiring. I think itís also adding stress to everything, and that is tiring, too. On a positive note, I started a log of everything I eat, when I eat it, and any pain or other distress I have and when I have it.



one of those days

Posted by missophelia , 01 June 2010 · 103 views

Today was one of those days, when I just wanted to throw my hands up in the air and scream ďI give up!Ē

I had my appointment with the surgeon this morning. We discussed my history with pain, with my ulcers, with the bacteria in my stomach, and with my IBS. After much discussion, he decided that heís not going to operate for now. I have another app...


my grandfather

Posted by missophelia , 31 May 2010 · 85 views

I spent a lot of time yesterday and last night thinking about my dad. The conclusion I kept coming to was that he doesnít deserve my pity, and that he was never the kind of father I could turn to for love and support.

He still isnít.

Then I got thinking about my grandfather, my fatherís dad. Partly because I was thinking about my own father. But also...


my father and his fist

Posted by missophelia , 30 May 2010 · 77 views

A and I went to an early dinner at my grandmotherís house today. I rarely go, but since my grandmother is 98, I figure I should start seeing her more often. There werenít many of us. Just myself, A, her friend, my aunt, my uncle, my father, and my grandmother, of course. I didnít eat much, because of the ongoing problems Iím having with pain.

I wasní...


why do my emotions leave me all mixed up?

Posted by missophelia , 29 May 2010 · 95 views

Today was ok. Not spectacular, but not as bad as my days have been lately. I didnít do much, just some housework. And some more cleaning out. I think Iím almost done doing that. It will feel good to have accomplished cleaning the junk out of my life.

I did do some writing today. Writing some more to my rescripting. Dr H said I could change it, or...

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