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Good and Bad

31 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
So, I made it through my dental appointment, just barely.

I took my anxiety med before I went, so I was a little relaxed. The dentist was very nice. Dr H had suggested that I tell him I have some fear of dental procedures, so I did. Of course, he thought my fear was all about pain.

That was fine with me. I didn't have to go into detail...
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Have to Go

30 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
I am so in need of encouragement right now. I am depressed, but at the same time, nervous, and anxious, and I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight.

I have to go to the dentist tomorrow. I HAVE TO GO. I've put it off for so long, but my teeth are so horrible, and I have so much pain.

Just the thought of the dentist conjures...
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How I Feel

29 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
Invisible

Powerless

Useless


Enough said

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Right now

28 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
I am so pissed. I have been all day.

I brought up my mom with Dr H, and now I can't stop thinking about her. She really pulls my chain, and I'm so tired of it. I wouldn't dare say anything to her about what she did to me, because she can do no wrong.

Yeah, right.

Dr H and I talked about what my mom did, and that went OK. Dr H...
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Family

27 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
I've had an anxiety ridden day today.

Today was the planned Christmas/New Years celebration with my brother and his family, who are visiting from out of state. I think of all my relatives, my brother is my favorite. We weren't close growing up, him being younger than I was, so I considered him a pain in the neck. Now we're as close...
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memories

26 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
I wish I could erase them.

That's just where I am tonight.

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On this day

25 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
It's been a long day for me, and one filled with some good, and some bad.
The day started out OK.
I got some nice gifts, and enjoyed giving some to the others in my family.

Then my tooth started to hurt-bad.
Dental visits are so hard for me.
Anyone putting anything in my mouth is very triggering, as well as anyone coming close to me,...
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Hope

24 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
Here's hoping for a merry Christmas tomorrow.
I got through tonight OK,
Except for the part about having to be in the same room as my uncle,
And all of the feelings and memories that brings up inside of me.
But I'm trying to stay positive, for my daughter,
And, yes, maybe I'm pushing some stuff aside right now
Like I used to do
But if...
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I made it!

23 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
I actually got the rest of my Christmas shopping done
No problems
A little anxiety
But I made it through

I feel like I've climbed a mountain

missophelia

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Bad day

22 December 2009
Posted by missophelia  
It's just been an all around bad kind of day.
Nothing drastically bad.
Nothing I can put a finger on.
Just feeling out of sorts.
Kind of down.
Not very positive.
But not very negative.
Just feeling like I'm not much good to anyone.
Here's hoping this feeling passes.

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