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sometimes...

11 June 2013
Posted by missophelia  
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it's about how I feel right now...

I wish I could fly away and never have to come back...

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more feelings...

10 June 2013
Posted by missophelia  
angry....

so angry....

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feelings...

09 June 2013
Posted by missophelia  
confused...

conflicted...

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coming to terms...

08 June 2013
Posted by missophelia  
I have realized that I have not come to terms, in many ways, with being raped.

I am not sure how I feel about that.

Or what to do about it.

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a letter...

05 June 2013
Posted by missophelia  
I wrote a letter today. And sent it.

I have been struggling for so long now. I think I am ready to try and change that.

And I know the change needs to come from within me.

Recently, my new psychiatrist and I worked to find a med for depression that I can take, one that has no triggers for my IBS. We found one. I took it for 4 days. The...
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pics of art....

01 June 2013
Posted by missophelia  
I have had these pics on my computer for a couple of weeks now. I have just not had the energy to post them here. The emotional energy, that is. That's one way my depression drains me.

Anyway, my art was on exhibit at a show this past month of May. It was very exciting, and I was thrilled at the opportunity to show my work.

I have...
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the lie...

26 May 2013
Posted by missophelia  
Picture of my artwork enclosed.

This is the third drawing I have done now, I guess as a way of trying whatever I can to help me pull myself out of this pit of depression that I have gotten mired in. It's another one of the quotes I have written in a book, that have some kind of meaning to me.

Dr K and I discussed this quote. She asked me...
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fragile...

23 May 2013
Posted by missophelia  
My belief is gone
My hope has faded
I am depressed
Angry
Full of anxiety

I feel overwhelmingly fragile.

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so hard...

19 May 2013
Posted by missophelia  
Everything has become so hard for me lately. Even writing this here, now, is just so hard. I honestly don't know how much I can manage to put down into words.

I have been so overwhelmed. I feel overwhelmed. I am just full of anxiety, and anger. I'm always depressed. Some moments are worse than others.

I got triggered the other...
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“At heart, I have always been a coper, I’ve mostly been able to walk around with my wounds safely hidden, and I’ve always stored up my deep depressive episodes for the weeks off when there was time to have an abbreviated version of a complete breakdown. But in the end, I’d be able to get up and on with it, could always do what little must be done...
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