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Posted by missophelia , 09 June 2016 · 34 views

Again, I am regrettably bad at blogging.  I have the desire to blog every day. 
My body has other desires, including freedom from pain and lots of sleep.
It is a battle that I am learning to adjust to, and having a hard time with.
That being said....
I find my self at a crossroads lately. 
Currently, in therapy, I am writing a...


great battle....

Posted by missophelia , 24 April 2016 · 170 views

"There is no greater battle in life than the battle between the parts of you that want to be healed,
and the parts of you that are comfortable and content remaining broken."
--Iyanla Vanzant
Boy, has that been me for many many years.
I saw Super Soul Sunday this morning on the Oprah Winfrey Network.  Oprah was inter...



Posted by missophelia , 17 April 2016 · 59 views

I haven't been here as much as I'd like to.  I keep saying--you need to write, ophelia....
Well, you see how far me saying that has gotten me...
Honestly, I have been so busy lately with doc appointments.  Had an IME for my lawsuit.  It just about killed me!  Talk about pain spikes!   My pain has b...



Posted by missophelia , 14 February 2016 · 108 views

I am struggling with acceptance today.
I recently was pretty harsh and hurtful to someone on facebook.  My intention was not to be that way, but something she said triggered me, and I spouted off like I rarely do. Usually, the spouts are in my head. 
Part of why I spouted off was legitimate, but it was totally unnecessary for me to...


seeing the other side...

Posted by missophelia , 28 January 2016 · 124 views

I talked in my last post about training my mind to see the good in everything and everyone.  About using that as a mantra every day to help me with my healing.
I have recently seen the other side of this.
I am dealing with a fellow veteran who is very mean in the way she sees veterans.  She is very mean in the way she talks about t...



Posted by missophelia , 21 January 2016 · 103 views

"Train your mind to see the good in everything"
--  Anonymous
I adapted this to, "train your mind to see the good in everything...and everyone"
Repeat mantra every morning. 
Or every hour.
Be mindful to work on that training throughout the day, in the moment.


a new start...

Posted by missophelia , 20 January 2016 · 79 views

I had therapy today.  Today, my session was different.
 A while back, I went through prolonged exposure therapy.  It was extremely difficult.  Very painful. 
Very eye opening, and helpful, in some ways.  But what was left over, what remains, is what I must now deal with.


it's been a wild ride of a week....

Posted by missophelia , 19 January 2016 · 107 views

Just got home with my car now hopefully fixed.  Although, I am now hearing strange things from the dash.  
Does it never end?
Anyway, I spent the weekend sleeping, cause someone gave me this nasty head cold and achy kind of feeling.  Tired.  Don't think it was the flu.  No fever, but then I rarely run one....


acceptance of where I am in the moment...

Posted by missophelia , 14 January 2016 · 76 views

Acceptance of where I am right now is coming hard tonight.
I just spent the past 4 hours waiting to get my car towed off the highway, and eventually to my mechanic here. Thankfully, I didn't panic when I lost control of it, and I was able to get it off the road and on the shoulder of the highway without having an accident.
But I am operating with little...


makes me more than sad...

Posted by missophelia , 09 January 2016 · 122 views

I have been working lately on trying to get something done at my VA. 
As of this past week, the work I have done has not gotten me what i wanted. 
But I am not done working on it, or done speaking out about it.
And it makes me very sad.
One employee at my VA decided that the art program, which helped so many veterans...

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