my days, again....
Maybe I have been blocking out the trauma, meaning that maybe I have been avoiding dealing with it?
I don't know.
All I do know is that for the past couple days I have found my self feeling very triggered, just about everywhere I go.
Part of prolonged exposure therapy is called in vivo exposure. In other words, doing those things that I tend to avoid because they trigger me and remind me of the trauma.
So, yesterday I went into a store that I never go in to, to buy some chicken wire. Not only was I feeling triggered by that, and just wanted to leave, but I had to ask a male employee for help in locating the chicken wire.
Needless to say, it was a very difficult experience for me.
I keep trying to stay mindful to the fact that this is supposed to help me in the long run. And I keep on doing my breathing, and my meditation.
And I think that if I didn't have those, I would not have been able to make it through the past couple of days.