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my days, again....

Posted by missophelia , 24 May 2014 · 106 views

The past couple of days have been hard for me.  Not a great difference from how my  days used to be.
 
Maybe I have been blocking out the trauma, meaning that maybe I have been avoiding dealing with it?
 
I don't know.
 
All I do know is that for the past couple days I have found my self feeling very triggered, just about everywhere I go. 
 
Part of prolonged exposure therapy is called in vivo exposure.  In other words, doing those things that I tend to avoid because they trigger me and remind me of the trauma.
 
So, yesterday I went into a store that I never go in to, to buy some chicken wire.  Not only was I feeling triggered by that, and just wanted to leave, but I had to ask a male employee for help in locating the chicken wire. 
 
Needless to say, it was a very difficult experience for me.
 
I keep trying to stay mindful to the fact that this is supposed to help me in the long run.  And I keep on doing my breathing, and my meditation.
 
And I think that if I didn't have those, I would not have been able to make it through the past couple of days.
 
Namaste



(((missophelia)))

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missophelia
May 26 2014 05:53 PM

thank you bellachai, my friend

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