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We talked about vulnerability, shame, change, reaching out, taking chances, self worth. Our homework for next Monday is to reflect on what the following statement means to us: "I am enough."
Yeah, deep stuff.
My physical and occupational therapies are not going well. My hand and wrist are still hurting pretty badly. My back and leg hurt, and my neck is not improving much. I am set to go back to my doc for follow up. It is a slow going road.
I also find my self pretty tired most days.
And that's from doing nothing.
When we checked in at the beginning of group Monday evening, I shared something big that I did on Saturday. I threw away my cutting tool.
It's definitely a different feeling for me. Not a bad one. I think that when we feel differently in a good way, it can feel like it's a bad thing, but that's because of the unfamiliarity of the new good feeling. Feeling good or different in a good way, after feeling so horrible for so long, can be scary.
But it was just this strange moment of inner strength I had, where my thinking turned to, I don't need to hold on to this tool. I just don't need it anymore.
Anyway, I kind of blogged about that and more this evening, on my wordpress blog. I invite you to read what I've written. Here is the link.
I hope you all have a good night.