My parents are not what i would ever think they would be.
I spent some time christmas day with my dad. And let me first say, I know he loves me. I know he would be there for me if I ever had a financial problem. He was when my car died earlier this year.
But, in watching my dad yesterday, I realized that my father is very self centered.
To him, money rules. He has to have the best of everything. He does not want to be associated with anything less. And it dawned on me, yesterday, in watching him, that he is. Very self centered. Very concerned with appearances. I love him, I always will.
That is just how he is, I realize, although I don't think it's all sunk in quite yet. I guess I am just seeing him in a whole different light than I ever did.
I spent some time today with my mother. And I should have known better.
I feel like I let my guard down with her. A while back, I did. And, now that she knows it's down, it's just time for her to move in and "attack".
I don't want to get in to the particulars, but she made some comments today, in a nasty, brat on the playground, kind of way. Full well knowing she was doing just that. Which doesn't exactly surprise me.
I guess the realization is that she will never change, which I should have full well known by now. AND, the realization that I'm a dupe.
I was taken in. I could kick myself.
Part of me is mad at myself for being taken in. A bigger part of me is mad at her. No, maybe furious is the word.
Maybe I shouldn't be so mad at myself? I think I've made progress, because after the last batch of comments from her, the worst ones, I was out of her house and down the road in a matter of 10 minutes.
I am so ready to be gone from my family.