Well, now I'm feeling it all at the same time.
Which is making me more depressed.
So is the prospect of having to live with this disease.
The exhaustion is beyond excruciating. It is also quite crippling.
I relayed to my therapist, in my session today, the feelings I have had that have been suicidal. And the urges I have been having to SI.
I don't know how much longer I can survive this way.
I don't think I am ever going to get better, either physically, or emotionally and mentally.
I don't think I am ever going to heal.