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to quote Tennessee Williams....

Posted by missophelia , 02 September 2013 · 68 views

"We all live in a house on fire, no fire department to call; no way out, just the upstairs window to look out of while the fire burns the house down with us trapped, locked in it."

Tennessee Williams


That's about how I feel. Right now. Like there is no way out for me. There never will be. There never will be a "healing" for me.

I know that right now I am in a dark place. And I don't know what to do about it.

I have been wavering the last few days, between total depression, and anxiety. My only reprieve seems to be getting triggered, and being angry.

And dealing with some physical problems.

I feel trapped. By everything. By my life. By the symptoms of my PTSD.

And yet, I also feel like I am a shell of the person I once was.

I can't even get myself to sit down at my art table, let alone even think about picking up a pencil and starting sketches for an art piece I've been wanting to start.

It is frustrating.

And I feel trapped. Stuck. Lost. Broken.

I am depressed. Anxious. Angry.

And I am tired of this constant, internal struggle.

Instead, I feel like just giving in, and not trying to fight my way out of that burning house that I'm trapped in.



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