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Posted by missophelia , 09 August 2013 · 134 views

How do I keep myself from feeling like the biggest loser in the world?

My car has died. So, I need to get a new one. Which I will do this coming week.

With my father's help.

I am 49 years old, and I have to ask my father for help.

Makes me feel like a big fat loser.

I shouldn't need my 71 year old father's help to buy a stinking car.

So, here I sit. All day, I've been struggling with self hatred, and urges to SI.

That's all.



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Jediheretic
Aug 09 2013 11:40 PM
What SLM said.

Some things are preventable, and some can be done yourself (you don't have to pay as much, therefore money's less of a barrier). That being said, sometimes (read: inevitably) mechanical things fail permanently. And if they do, it's not necessarily your fault.
SLM is right. It's alright to ask others for help, even when we are older. Everybody needs help sometimes. You have nothing to feel ashamed of. :hug:
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missophelia
Aug 11 2013 09:45 AM
SomebodyLoveMe, Jediheretic,and Parlophone,

Thank you all for your comments. I really appreciate the feedback and support, and your words have helped me.

:hug: to you all, if ok.

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