trees and art and therapy....
My therapist, Dr K, and I, are trying to work together to help me find more positive ways to cope with the overwhelming feelings I am going through right now. I haven't been as overwhelmed the past couple of days, but the urges to SI are still there, strong, for the most part constant.
I discussed The Butterfly Project with her. For anyone unfamiliar, basically when you have the urge to SI, you draw a butterfly in permanent marker or pen on the place you SI. You give that butterfly the name of someone you love. If you SI, you kill the butterfly (the person whose name you gave it). You can't scrub it off, it has to fade naturally.
I don't think The Butterfly Project is for me.
Dr K asked me what has meaning for me. That's easy. Trees.
Trees represent the beauty of creation, and the soul of the universe. That is how I see them. They are beautiful. But on a more personal plane, I find drawing and painting trees to be very healing. I can get lost in drawing a tree. And I think I draw them quite well. :rolleyes:/>/> />/>
So, Dr K asked me if I could use drawing trees as a way to help me cope with the urges I have to SI. I told her I would try. I have a drafting table set up specifically for that. Easy to get to, with paper and pencil so that I can just go and draw.
She also asked me to do a drawing for therapy homework. I have a small book of quotes that I find inspirational, and I shared some of them with her. I told her I wanted to do some drawings with trees and those quotes. I've had the quotes for a few months, but have had such a hard time drawing or painting anything at all at home.
Anyway, she asked me if I would do one of those drawings. I did. Now she wants me to do another one.
So, here's the drawing. Click on it to see it larger.
It was hard to get started, but I managed to get it done. The jury is still out as to whether or not it has helped me. I am seriously thinking of doing another one.
Anyway, thank you for reading, and looking. />/>