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I am here...

30 January 2013
Posted by missophelia 
I am here, but I don't want to be. Every nerve in my body, every fiber within me, is screaming to not post this.

And I don't understand.

For almost two years, I blogged here, every night.

But for some reason, all I want to do lately is to isolate.

I feel like I push others away from me.

Consciously.

And I know that I am holding back from sharing anything about me that is personal. I start to type things, and then I delete them. It's not that I don't feel safe here. I don't know what it is.

I just for some reason cannot get myself to open up.

But I am here.

I haven't given in to my urges to SI, not yet. Tonight, those urges are screaming at me.

I just feel cut off from the world.

And I feel like I want to, and need to, cut myself off from the world.

It just all hurts right now.

Maybe it will get better.

Maybe it won't.

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2 Comments On This Entry

feel exactly the same way :tear: I'm so sorry, that you are going through all this :bawling: I don't know what to say, I'm out of words.

I'm here if you need to talk or when you just need someone to sit with you :hug: (if ok)

Take gentle care :metoyou:
EVH, 30 January 2013 - 08:42 PM
EVH

I'm sorry you feel the same way.

Thank you for your words.

You take gentle care, too. :hug: :metoyou:
missophelia, 31 January 2013 - 04:44 AM
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