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My tumblr blog writing for the evening, if anyone cares to read.
http://artlifehealing.tumblr.com/
Trigger warning. Please take care of you.
I have been depressed lately. I am depressed. I am also anxious, at times today I've been full of anxiety. The past few days. Which seems to be so contradictory. To be depressed, down, but at the same time, anxious, which doesn't leave me feeling "down".
I'm in a dark place. And I realized something today.
Back when I was seeing Dr H, I had a period where I went through horrible anxiety. Over driving. I was convinced that I was going to get into an accident behind the wheel and die. I would be scared to death to drive to my sessions.
At the same time, I was depressed. I was going through some of what I'm going through now, emotionally, mentally. And Dr H was worried about me.
And I told her that the only thing that should worry her is if I stopped being so anxious about driving, and if I didn't care whether or not I got into an accident and died.
And today I realized that now I don't care whether or not I get into an accident and die.
No, I'm not actively suicidal. Yes, I want to SI. I came close today. But, no, I'm not planning on doing anything suicidal. But on the other hand, if something happened to me, right now, I don't care. And right now, I don't know if I could make myself do whatever I needed to in order to prevent something happening to me.
It was very hard for me to write that. I have had times in the past where I have expressed how I was feeling about this stuff, and it was all misunderstood. Blown out of proportion. Which only made it worse. Most times, when I feel this low, I keep my mouth shut. But tonight I need to be able to express it.
So, thank you. For listening. For understanding. And for knowing, like I do, that this will pass, and I will be ok. I do have hope for that.
But I still feel the way I do.
http://artlifehealing.tumblr.com/
Trigger warning. Please take care of you.
I have been depressed lately. I am depressed. I am also anxious, at times today I've been full of anxiety. The past few days. Which seems to be so contradictory. To be depressed, down, but at the same time, anxious, which doesn't leave me feeling "down".
I'm in a dark place. And I realized something today.
Back when I was seeing Dr H, I had a period where I went through horrible anxiety. Over driving. I was convinced that I was going to get into an accident behind the wheel and die. I would be scared to death to drive to my sessions.
At the same time, I was depressed. I was going through some of what I'm going through now, emotionally, mentally. And Dr H was worried about me.
And I told her that the only thing that should worry her is if I stopped being so anxious about driving, and if I didn't care whether or not I got into an accident and died.
And today I realized that now I don't care whether or not I get into an accident and die.
No, I'm not actively suicidal. Yes, I want to SI. I came close today. But, no, I'm not planning on doing anything suicidal. But on the other hand, if something happened to me, right now, I don't care. And right now, I don't know if I could make myself do whatever I needed to in order to prevent something happening to me.
It was very hard for me to write that. I have had times in the past where I have expressed how I was feeling about this stuff, and it was all misunderstood. Blown out of proportion. Which only made it worse. Most times, when I feel this low, I keep my mouth shut. But tonight I need to be able to express it.
So, thank you. For listening. For understanding. And for knowing, like I do, that this will pass, and I will be ok. I do have hope for that.
But I still feel the way I do.
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I care about you and I care about whether or not you are in an accident. I hope that maybe you can try to be careful. Please do be careful. I want to see you get better and be okay. And you are right, this will pass. I am here listening, and if you want to talk more, PM me any time.