Malfunctioning--A Double Edged Sword
This afternoon I had a follow up appointment with my stomach doctor. To go over the tests Iíve had for my stomach and my gallbladder.
Like always, I expected everything to be normal. Iíve started to think my stomach pains have been all in my head. For the past 4 years Iíve been having tests, and more tests. And nothing has ever come back with a result. Except I have irritable bowel syndrome, and an ulcer. But my ulcer isnít even bad.
So, today, I expected to sit in her office, and listen to her tell me that there was absolutely nothing wrong with me. Which should make me happy. But the pain is real. It hurts, sometimes so much that it doubles me over and I have to stay laying down until it goes away.
So, my GI series was normal. My abdominal ultrasound was normal. Then we talked about this hida scan test I had, the one where they injected me with radioactive stuff. Luckily I didnít glow. haha
At first I didnít know what the test was for. I looked it up on the internet, and found out. I know not everything on the internet is correct, but in this case it was. Itís a test that fills the liver with this tracer, which goes in through an IV. Then the tracer goes through the liver and into the gallbladder.
Once the gallbladder is full of the tracer, something else is sent through the IV. The second tracer makes the gallbladder contract, and what it shows is whether the gallbladder is functioning properly. It also shows gall stones, or a blockage, if either of those things are the problem.
So hereís the double edged sword.
My gallbladder is malfunctioning.
Great news, because I actually have something wrong. There is a medical reason for my pain. It isnít all in my head. And itís not just stress causing the pain. Itís very real.
I feel like my pain has been vindicated. Thatís the one edge of the sword. The other edge?
When my doctor told me I was going to see a surgeon, I started to panic. Iíve never had surgery. The thought of having surgery kind of freaks me a little. You know, opening me up, and all that goes along with that. But Iím trying to get rid of this anxiety Iíve been having since I saw her. After all, the surgeon might not want to take it out.
I donít know.
Tonight Iím trying to stay calm. Thereís nothing I can do about it right now anyway. I know that if I have a low fat diet, that will help. Fatty, greasy foods make gallbladder pain worse. Iíll just go have my test next week, and wait to see the surgeon.
Besides, if it were something that was some kind of emergency, I know my doctor wouldnít have me wait. She would do something now.
Ok, now I feel a little better. Writing always helps me, and I think I just talked myself out of my anxiety.
I hope you all have a good evening.