A Strange Day?
Today I stayed home. Iíve been feeling ok, just ok. Not wonderful. Not miserable. I was up last night with a miserable headache. So, I switched pain killers. My headache is mostly gone.
I didnít do much today but sleep, rest, and eat lots of jello and custard. Iíve been craving all of these things I canít eat right now. But Iím tough enough to make it on what I can eat. Iíve also been craving a smoke. I donít know how tough I am to be able to wait until I can have one of those. My dentist said 4-5 days.
Iíll have to make it.
A has been good to me all day. She ran to the store for me earlier, picked me up a couple of things I can have. She also brought me my meds and stuff to eat. Sheís really become a great person. Very caring, and thoughtful.
Last Monday Dr H told me that if I canít make it to my session on this Monday, to let her know. But I feel strong enough to make it. I wonít have any problem. I told her I wasnít going to let this oral surgery keep me down. I wasnít going to let it interfere with therapy or my healing. I just need time to heal, physically.
I think thatís important to my overall healing.
I had a dream last night, but it was really weird. And he wasnít in it anywhere. It was a short dream. Maybe it was influenced by my pain meds. I went into the bathroom, and couldnít find the toilet. I got nervous, asked A where it was. For some reason it was on the other side of the bathroom from where it is in reality. She showed me, I felt stupid for not seeing it. Then I woke up.
I think that was definitely influenced by my meds. It was just strange.
I even told A about it this morning. She just kind of looked at me, and asked if I needed anything. I donít blame her for looking at me. I would have looked at myself like that too.
Itís actually been a light day for me. I think my body and mind are concentrating on my physical healing. I havenít done much thinking about other things. But I think thatís ok. I think my mind needs a break from that kind of thinking. Trust me, I have plenty of time for all of that when my mouth is more healed.
I think itís ok to take a break every once in a while. It sure feels ok.