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A Strange Day?

Posted by missophelia , 24 April 2010 · 12 views

Itís been a strange day today. Although Iíve spent lots of time in the recent past staying home to avoid facing my triggers, itís been a long time since Iíve stayed home because of being sick, or under the weather.

Today I stayed home. Iíve been feeling ok, just ok. Not wonderful. Not miserable. I was up last night with a miserable headache. So, I switched pain killers. My headache is mostly gone.

I didnít do much today but sleep, rest, and eat lots of jello and custard. Iíve been craving all of these things I canít eat right now. But Iím tough enough to make it on what I can eat. Iíve also been craving a smoke. I donít know how tough I am to be able to wait until I can have one of those. My dentist said 4-5 days.

:gaah: Iíll have to make it.

A has been good to me all day. She ran to the store for me earlier, picked me up a couple of things I can have. She also brought me my meds and stuff to eat. Sheís really become a great person. Very caring, and thoughtful.

Last Monday Dr H told me that if I canít make it to my session on this Monday, to let her know. But I feel strong enough to make it. I wonít have any problem. I told her I wasnít going to let this oral surgery keep me down. I wasnít going to let it interfere with therapy or my healing. I just need time to heal, physically.

I think thatís important to my overall healing.

I had a dream last night, but it was really weird. And he wasnít in it anywhere. It was a short dream. Maybe it was influenced by my pain meds. I went into the bathroom, and couldnít find the toilet. I got nervous, asked A where it was. For some reason it was on the other side of the bathroom from where it is in reality. She showed me, I felt stupid for not seeing it. Then I woke up.

I think that was definitely influenced by my meds. It was just strange.

I even told A about it this morning. She just kind of looked at me, and asked if I needed anything. I donít blame her for looking at me. I would have looked at myself like that too.

Itís actually been a light day for me. I think my body and mind are concentrating on my physical healing. I havenít done much thinking about other things. But I think thatís ok. I think my mind needs a break from that kind of thinking. Trust me, I have plenty of time for all of that when my mouth is more healed.

I think itís ok to take a break every once in a while. It sure feels ok.

I believe it's not only okay to take a break from things, but beneficial as well. Besides you really do need the time to heal physically. It must be so amazing to have watched A grow into such a great young woman. I hope you smile when you think of your contribution to this transformation. :)
Apr 25 2010 06:26 AM

I think it has done me good to take a break these past couple of days. I feel a little better today than I did yesterday. I think everything in my mouth will heal slowly, but just fine.

Thank you for your kind words about A. I really am proud of her. :)

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