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I Have Realized Something

Posted by missophelia , 09 April 2010 · 87 views

I did a lot of thinking today, and I have realized something. Iíve come to a conclusion. Telling my story to Dr H will not kill me.

Iíve been thinking a lot about my upcoming oral surgery. Iíve been trying not to panic. I know why Iíve been panicking. Itís because of what he did to me behind the gym. And I really think I need to talk to Dr H about it before I have the surgery. I know I do. I think that maybe telling her will go a long way in helping me to deal with my anxiety about the surgery. I know it will.

So, thatís what Iíve realized. I know that when I put my mind to doing something, I can do it. And today I put my mind to telling her that part of my story Monday.

I think Iím a lot stronger than I sometimes give myself credit for. And the more I think about telling her, the more I realize that I can do it, no matter how hard it will be for me. I also think that once I start talking, it wonít really be that hard.

Maybe Iíve projected in my mind that it would be too hard. Maybe Iíve been self-defeating. Maybe Iíve let him have too much control over me, for too long.

Between now and Monday, Iím not going to obsess over it. Iím just going to have my weekend, get up Monday, drive to my appointment, and tell her.

Tonight, I feel strong. I know I can do it. I find myself at peace with that.



:yay: Good for you. I hope you really enjoy your weekend. Do something fun just for yourself. Take good care of yourself. :hug: :hug: :hug:
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missophelia
Apr 10 2010 09:47 AM
bellachai

Thank you. I have a lot planned for the weekend, so I'll be able to keep myself busy. And maybe have some fun too.

When I got up this morning, I thought about what I'd written in this post. And strangely, I don't feel freaked out about telling her.

peace to you :hug: :hug:
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Untangling-It-All
Apr 10 2010 11:29 AM
You sound so strong! This is wonderful progress! Go you :)
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missophelia
Apr 10 2010 12:55 PM
Untangling

Thank you. :)

Your words are very encouraging.

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