Everything makes me feel helpless. Anxiety. Depression. Nightmares. Flashbacks. Panic Attacks. Every one of those paralyzes me and makes me feel completely helpless.
I want it to change. I want to feel strong. I want to feel confident. I want to be able to have the kind of life that I should be entitled to.
A happy, "normal", life. Where I can go places and do things, enjoy things--enjoy life--without feeling so helpless.
Now I just need to figure out how.
It isn't my fault. I didn't want it. I didn't deserve it. I am not dirty.