Have to Go
I have to go to the dentist tomorrow. I HAVE TO GO. I've put it off for so long, but my teeth are so horrible, and I have so much pain.
Just the thought of the dentist conjures up so many horrible things in my mind. I hate being touched. I hate people getting close to me. I absolutely am revolted at the thought of someone sticking ANYTHING in my mouth. Or touching my face. Or my neck. Or ANYWHERE on my body. Any of it gives me such anxiety, sometimes flashbacks.
I have taken my meds, trying deep breathing, grounding, anything that can help me relax. Trying to think of a safe place, some time where I was happy, good memories.
I'm trying, and I guess that's all I can do.