Out of place
Like I don't belong anywhere.
I was supposed to go out with my mom, but I couldn't force myself to.
I just told her that my stomach was bothering me, which it was.
I guess I just don't feel like I fit in anywhere.
I'm even uncomfortable with myself today.
It's just where I'm at, if that makes any sense.
Anyway, tomorrow is therapy again. Hopefully it will be a productive session. Once in a while that happens.
I'm still wondering if I'll have the nerve to talk to Dr H about my urges to SI. I think if it was anyone else that I was considering telling, I would probably back right out, because I don't trust anyone. Except her.
I just fear being belittled, or put down, or treated like my feelings don't really matter.