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Just another day

Posted by missophelia , 17 December 2009 · 43 views

Just another wonderful day. I got a little Christmas shopping done, but almost had a meltdown in the store.
I just feel depressed, and the crowds didn't help.
I don't know, maybe it's the time of year. Maybe it's the change in my meds, but all I wanted to do was break down crying. That would've been a pretty sight.
I had all I could do to get through the check out lane and back to my car.
I hate feeling this way.
I'm depressed.
I'm lonely.
I'm not looking forward to the next week. I still have shopping that I have to get done, and people I have to see-some I'd rather not.
I resisted the urge to SI that was so strong yesterday, but I don't know if I have the strength to resist much longer. My depression hurts.
Maybe if I had a little "Christmas cheer" I'd feel better.
Then again, maybe I wouldn't



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