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I have to get this out

Posted by missophelia , 11 December 2009 · 30 views

I'm sorry if this triggers anyone...


I have to get this out. I want to shout it and have it out of my system for once and for all.
I hate to even write it, because it triggers me.
The word--slut

He called me that.
How dare he.
He didn't know me.
He didn't have the right to call me such a vile name.
How did he know who I was?

He said it with relish.
He smiled when he said it.
He held me down while he said it.
He raped me while he said it.

I HATE HIM.
I hate him with every bit of who I am.

There, I got it out.

Now why don't I feel any better?



I'm sorry you feel this pain.
I feel the pain from where you're coming from...It may not be the same by us Survivors all know so some extent....Stay strong & just remember no matter how bad things were it will make you so much stronger!

Have you talked about this with someone close or have you come out about your abuse?....I just did & it took so much strenth to do so....Remember we are all here to support you & help you through it all! If you need anyone to talk with feel free to PM me.

((((((Bear Hugs)))))) Feel better!
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missophelia
Dec 12 2009 06:52 PM
Thank you for the kind words. It's nice to know people care.

I haven't come out about my abuse to anyone except Dr. H. I don't think I'm ready to with anyone else, and I hope that when I am, I have the strength.

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