A list of things
Some of them are triggers, some of them are a result of my being raped.
I apologize if any of them trigger any of you.
sleeping on my back or stomach--makes me feel vulnerable. I have to sleep with my bed against the wall, and my back to the wall
anyone standing or walking behind me, or sneaking up behind me
men in uniform
most men in general, unless they are really old
darkness and quiet at night
going out after dark
being touched, or the thought of being touched sexually by my husband
having him in my head
being on medication
not being able to use alcohol to numb me
I HATE HIM
talking about myself
talking about the rapes