I don't like holidays, I haven't in a long time. I just end up feeling more alone. I find myself surrounded by family but feeling so out of place. It's been a long time since I've been truly happy. I have to pretend I'm someone I'm not, and I have a hard time being "festive."
I did manage to eat a little today. Most days I don't each much of anything, if anything at all. Dr. H says that's just another way I have of beating myself up, by not eating. I don't know, I guess it's not too healthy for me to refuse to eat. But I do.
Hope everyone one had a nice Thanksgiving.