I thought it would be great to feel nothing, but it just makes everything worse. I don't understand how I can go from a day filled with anxiety, to a day where I feeling nothing at all. I try to imagine what I could do to make myself feel anything at all. I mean, at least with anxiety I feel like I'm alive.
With numbness I don't. I feel like I'm an empty shell.
My doctor says it's normal. She says that a lot. I sure don't feel normal. I haven't felt normal in a long long time. I wonder what kind of normal she's talking about. I wish I could feel something in between anxiety and numbness. That would be nice for a change.