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30 December 2012
Posted by missophelia  
B is the first letter of his first name.

Although I was required to call him Senior Chief.

I hate him.

I've never said or written his first name, not even his initial. Which is very triggering to me, but I am feeling triggered right now anyway.

Very anxious, and angry, and depressed feeling right now.

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trying to make sense...

29 December 2012
Posted by missophelia  
Of how I've been feeling.

I am wondering. Is having to confront the trauma like I've been doing with trauma processing, is that having something to do with how I have been feeling?

Never before in therapy did I really confront it like I have done with Dr K.

I think that, before, there was always a way that I could run from...
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taking it slowly...

24 December 2012
Posted by missophelia  
So much is different now. With me.

I want to get back to the things I was doing. The good, healing things. I want to jump headlong into doing all of those things again.

But I need to take it slowly.

So, here goes.

I did a drawing for my dad, for christmas. It's a sketch I did a few months ago, that I redid and framed for him. Very...
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scared of me...

13 December 2012
Posted by missophelia  
I have had such a hard time lately, with everything. And also with getting myself to be able to write.

I hope that I can at least put some words and thoughts down here.

I have been struggling with depression. Anxiety. Anger. Today has been extremely hard for me.

And again, like last year, christmas has hit me and filled me with horrible...
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a glimpse...

09 December 2012
Posted by missophelia  
I have depression. I have anger.

I have PTSD. I have problems.

All of these things, they are not some neat little, lets take them out and show them off and look all hip and cute and with it and rad, kinds of things. Let's put together some posts that will get lots of attention, let's take them out and parade them when it feels...
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update 1...

03 December 2012
Posted by missophelia  
Nothing concrete to write, just maybe the act of writing something may help?

Today I worked. It was a real struggle to get up and go. But I also had physical therapy down at the VA. So I made myself go to work, and then went down for my PT.

My back has been horrible. I don't know how much the PT is actually helping. And at work today, I...
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