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PTSD....

Posted by missophelia , 03 October 2013 · 114 views

a shell of who I was

fear, nightmares, and flashbacks rule.

the memories, they come...

the bad floods in.

all that was good...is lost.

a noise, a thought, people,

things that trigger,

I come apart at the seams.

high anxiety, always on guard,

rivaled only by depression that disables.

rage, where there should be none.

anger, just below the surf...


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trying to process....

Posted by missophelia , 02 October 2013 · 111 views

Trying to process all that happened to me in regards to the trauma is hard. I've been working on it, off and on, for the past 5 years. And I know that, in that process, a lot of the time I look back and in pours the self blame.

I think it is important to remember to not second guess myself. To not go back and say to myself, if only you had done th...


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staring...

Posted by missophelia , 01 October 2013 · 104 views

This was homework for therapy. I get very triggered by staring, mostly men staring. But, strangely, cats staring trigger me too. I guess it's most staring that triggers me, although I haven't found many women, if any, that stare at me. And of course, children stare, and that's cute.

But, Dr K had me go back to one specific time that he...






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