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an ok day...but is that good?

Posted by missophelia , 05 September 2010 · 62 views

Itís been an ok day. I havenít done much all day, just laundry this morning. Iím still not feeling well, my stomach is hurting. Havenít eaten much, spent most of the day napping.

I had a nightmare last night. Which shouldnít surprise me. Iím just so tired of the routine--most of the time if I get triggered during the day, I have a nightmare that nig...


it just keeps coming

Posted by missophelia , 04 September 2010 · 52 views

All day today, Iíve felt like it just keeps coming. If it isnít one thing, itís another. It hasnít been a good day, and maybe if I write a little, it will help. It has helped in the past. All I know is that I don't know how much more I can take, and I feel like I can't do any of this much longer.

My stomach had me up again last night. Really...


I hate thinking

Posted by missophelia , 03 September 2010 · 70 views

Today was alright, I guess. Nothing seems wonderful to me right now, so I donít even know how alright today was. If that makes any sense.

I was up in the middle of the night. Pain, really bad. It woke me up. And I couldnít find the pills the doctor gave me. I donít know how long I lay there. Finally, thankfully, I fell asleep again. And when I go...


relaxation, and some answers?

Posted by missophelia , 02 September 2010 · 57 views

Well, today went much better than yesterday. Sort of a relaxing day, with just a little frustration thrown in.

I spent a good part of the day at the shrine. It was a little on the warm side, but other than that it was beautiful. Peaceful. I even took a lunch, and my sketch pad. It was a great way to relax, and step back from yesterday.

I really a...


anxiety and separation

Posted by missophelia , 01 September 2010 · 53 views

I had a pretty rough day today. Iím doing better now, but not wonderful. Anxiety, and some depression. Which doesnít make sense to me.

I would think that anxiety wouldnít leave room for depression. But I havenít been able to motivate myself to do anything. I donít know, maybe itís just exhaustion from being overwhelmed today.

I didnít really have...


what scares me

Posted by missophelia , 31 August 2010 · 64 views

Today has been ok, just. Not too bad a day, not too good a day. I didnít do much, and I didnít go anywhere. It was really hot out, about 90, and humid. But itís supposed to cool off by the weekend.

I had a nightmare last night. And itís probably because I did a lot of thinking before I went to bed. It makes me want to not think at all, about anythi...


lighter session

Posted by missophelia , 30 August 2010 · 58 views

Therapy went well today. Most of my day was good, except for still not feeling very well physically.

After therapy I stopped and picked up some groceries. There are some good fresh fruit sales this week. Then I went home, put the groceries away, and crashed. Iím still really tired, and although I didnít feel too bad all day, my headache is back a lit...


depression...so what's new?

Posted by missophelia , 29 August 2010 · 50 views

Today hasnít been wonderful. I havenít done much, because Iím still not feeling good. Iím tired, but not as tired. I think Iíve gotten some good sleep. I hope I sleep well tonight. I have therapy in the morning, which I will go to unless Iím too sick.

Other than feeling sick, Iíve been a little down today. I feel a little depressed. I donít know h...


thinking, and resting, and so on

Posted by missophelia , 28 August 2010 · 47 views

Today has been ok. I suppose it could have been worse.

I woke up feeling alright. My plans were to clean my old ladyís house today. I was going to head up there around 10 this morning. But shortly after I got up, I got sick to my stomach. And then my head started pounding again. So, I had to cancel with her. I donít want to give her anything.

I s...


taking back what was mine

Posted by missophelia , 27 August 2010 · 55 views

Today has been better for me. Iím feeling better, lots better, actually. I got some sleep. I think my body just crashed. Which it needed.

I stayed in today. Not to sound weak, or anything, but I avoided going out because of the weather. Itís been beautiful out, but itís been just like it was out there, during this anniversary time. Iíve already be...

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