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Loneliness Is OK

Posted by missophelia , 08 May 2010 · 80 views

Today was an ok day. I felt a little lonely. D was at work, and A was out with friends. So I had the house to myself. Usually I love that, but it got a little lonely today, for some reason which I havenít figured out yet.

But it wasnít a bad lonely. And it got me thinking.

Iíve felt lonely most of my life. As a child, in school, even right up to w...


Malfunctioning--A Double Edged Sword

Posted by missophelia , 07 May 2010 · 72 views

My day has been interesting. I started by doing some more cleaning. It doesnít seem like Iíll ever get it done. Thereís just so much stuff, so much clutter, in my house. Iíll get there one day, even if itís just a little at a time.

This afternoon I had a follow up appointment with my stomach doctor. To go over the tests Iíve had for my stomach and m...


Some Success

Posted by missophelia , 06 May 2010 · 74 views

Today was a good day. I got a little more sleep last night, so I felt a little more rested. But I didnít listen to the news this morning.

I think itís best not to listen, but it makes me feel like I canít handle things. And that makes me feel helpless.

How do I choose between doing something, or hearing something, or seeing something, any of those th...


Feeling Derailed

Posted by missophelia , 05 May 2010 · 72 views

Today has been a little better for me. I didnít get much sleep, so I napped today. That helped.

I had a nightmare last night, but it wasnít too bad. I was working, and left the watch floor to use the bathroom. When I went around the corner, he was there. I tried to walk around him, but he moved in front of me. And he didnít say anything. He just s...



Posted by missophelia , 04 May 2010 · 81 views

I am putting a warning on this. It isnít censored, and it may upset you. It may not. Just please read with caution, and take care of yourself.

Today was not a very good day. And I hope Iím not going to have difficulty writing. Because I need to write this out.

Every morning, as I drink my coffee, I listen to the local news on the radio. Itís just...


A Good Session, A Good Day

Posted by missophelia , 03 May 2010 · 65 views

My session today went really well. I left feeling a little lighter. Which is always good.

First I told Dr H about my follow up with the oral surgeon. She said she was glad everything was healing up.

I told her about the man in the store, who stood behind me staring, and how he reminded me of him. And I told her about the nightmare Iíd had. We tal...


The Picture and What It Means--To Me

Posted by missophelia , 02 May 2010 · 63 views

Today was a pretty good day. I was up early. Laundry to do. After my trip to Dunkiní Donuts, I got going on some cleaning. And I kept my mind off of the feelings Iíve been struggling with the past couple of days.

I got quite a bit done today. Iím actually quite satisfied with the progress Iím making on cleaning the junk out of my house. I got rid o...


Doubt and a Dream

Posted by missophelia , 01 May 2010 · 67 views

I didnít sleep well last night. I actually fell asleep ok, but I had a nightmare, so I probably got about 3 hours of sleep.

It was just him staring at me, and that smothering feeling. Just me on the Navy base, working, going to dinner, doing rounds, talking to friends. And seeing his stare everywhere, right in front of my eyes. Then everything in my...


Not Convinced

Posted by missophelia , 30 April 2010 · 77 views

Last night, as I was laying in bed, I started thinking.

I had a hard time falling asleep, and when I did sleep, I was restless. So, before I got to sleep, I was just thinking. Not about anything in particular, but also about the past couple of years. Where I was, and where Iím going.

I ended up getting back up, and then I ended up reading over some o...


The Visit

Posted by missophelia , 29 April 2010 · 70 views

Today was better than yesterday. I slept well last night. I didnít get a ton of sleep, but what I got did me good.

I had some running around to do. Pick up some groceries--things I can eat without teeth. I still canít understand this--someone I know said she knows someone who has dentures. But she said he doesnít wear them most of the time. And she...

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