Head down, bum up.
I know that people see me as obsessed about my studies and right at the moment I don't really care. This degree is important and I need to do really well if I want to do an honours year, especially if it is somewhere besides Southern Cross. So I need to pull my socks up and really start doing well. Last semester was more like what I need but I need to try and get all my grades above a Credit. Distinctions and High Distinctions, especially now that I am totally in my units for my majors, is what I need.
I know some people are going to be disappointed in me. They will see this as putting more unnecessary pressure on myself. But I don't believe it is unecessary. Not if I am to do my best. There are no excuses now. I am out and safe. Money is relatively stable, if a little tight most of the time. And I am at a point where I have to start saying that what happened is not my life. It does not define who I am. It is time to not just let it go but to push it away, kicking and screaming if necessary.
I am going to do this. I have to.