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Posted by Zelda  
I am gaining strength, even if it is only through insight. I don't have many words to draw this out much, basically the upshot is
realizing I assign a lot of power to people in my life. Slowly but surely I am withdrawing the power I have assigned and it's a whole new ballgame.

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Posted by Zelda  
I don't feel much like blogging lately. My usual fellow bloggers have fallen off and I have too. I think I was unaware of the influence of my peers here, how their writing inspired or reminded me of things in my life. So this is more like a report, a checking in. What's going on ? Small barely dectable changes. But they are huge sign...
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Posted by Zelda  
Thanks you guys that responded, it means a lot to me that you are here. Some reason I cannot comment on my own blog....anyway, thanks again and SW I love that.



I pretend to myself until....



I see my impulses and where it is leading me and know enough to catch myself and let up...


this place excepting, I have zero support in my lfe....
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i am in deep trouble

08 May 2011
Posted by Zelda  
mentally I am not well.

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to sleep/to shut down

02 May 2011
Posted by Zelda  
Nothing but ideas and concepts to report in my life as usual, no proof in the pudding that things are changing. Small things.

Just more realization how weak , how vunererable , how I send those signals out to the world, loud and clear

without knowing it.

Paranoia and my lameness.



Inner knowledge, I am getting to know myself. Which is...
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paranoia

02 May 2011
Posted by Zelda  
When you are raised by at least one parent who is literally out to get you and the other parent, well jury is out, but at the very least did nothing, which is a lot, you grow
up and become a paranoid person. At least I did, as I am finding out. Disclaimer, this is in no way knocking myself. That said, I am going to start documenting
my paranoid...
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paranoia

02 May 2011
Posted by Zelda  
When you are raised by at least one parent who is literally out to get you and the other parent well jury is out, but at the very least did nothing, which is a lot, you grow
up and become a paranoid person. At least I did, as I am finding out. Disclaimer, this is in no way knocking myself. That said, I am going to start documenting
my paranoid...
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unearthing

29 April 2011
Posted by Zelda  
for many months now, I have a flashback I guess you call it. Not a picture/image just an abstract idea or feeling
of intense anger coupled with an upended beverage of some sort crashing and spilling all over.

Just that.

It comes to me at least once a day. I am walking toward someone with a coffee or something and the idea
of smashing the...
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19th nervous meltdown

26 April 2011
Posted by Zelda  
I can't believe that I am just now seeing this...


Last night I came home from work and my pc had a bug, the bluetooth keyboard and mouse failed. I had nobody to call so had to rely on myself to figure this thing out and I was really really distraught, overwhelmed and yes, suicidal over this minor situation. I do remember even calming...
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just some quotes

26 April 2011
Posted by Zelda  
Some trauma survivors initially find yoga threatening. "The yoga study had the highest dropout rate of any study I’ve ever done," van der Kolk says. "It was more scary for many traumatized women to discover their bodies than to take a pill."




It's not life that matters, it's the courage you bring to it


~yogi...
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