Pandora's Aquarium: Today was horrible - Pandora's Aquarium

Today was so horrible, the little girl that I have been so worried about was taken today by DHS. I had decided earlier in the week that I would not offer to take her, but then they showed up. I knew what they were there for, and I changed my mind. I couldn't just let her go without saying something, without offering, so I mentioned that I would take her. They would not let me because they do not want her to be placed in the same county. There is worry about the family causing problems. I guess they have another place for her.

She is 5 years old, and she has a 4 year old little sister that is also in pre-k, a smaller sister who is 2, and her mother just had a baby 2 weeks ago. They were all taken away. The sad thing is the other girls are going to be placed together, and my little one is going to be separated from them. I didn't even get to say goodbye to her, and we had gotten close. I ended up breaking down in front of the other kids in class, and they were all wondering where she went. I told them that she went home, I guess we are going to tell them that she moved on Monday. It has been the hardest day. I can't help but think of how scared that she must be, going to a new family, a new home, and starting a new school, not knowing anyone or what is happening to her. I would give anything if I could have just done something. Today she told me that she wished I could come home with her, she is such a sweet little girl.

I called her case worker and left a message that if it doesn't work out that I would like to take care or her, and help in anyway that I can. He didn't call back, and I doubt he will. My sister is her bus driver, and was her teacher last year. We are all so upset about it. When my sister drove by her house the caseworker was there with the county sheriff, I guess they were taking the other kids. I don't understand why they won't let me take her. We deal with people at school all the time that are not allowed to take kids, we could protect her from her idiotic family. They wouldn't have to know that I am the one that took her, and they wouldn't have to know where I live. It would have been much better for her if they would have just allowed me to take her. I am so scared that she will get lost in the system. I am scared of the home that she is going to go to. I hate that I am not going to be able to see her. I am scared that it may not work out and that she will be moved to another family. She needs a stable environment, safety, and love, that is all, and she would be okay.

The sad thing is, when she is scared, when things are going bad for her, she acts out. What if the family can't handle it, and they have to move her somewhere else. I know her, she knows me, what good does it do to place her somewhere that is completely unfamiliar to her, it is only going to make it harder for her. Gosh, I hated my job today so much.