Its Been A While
I had to step away, everything was just taking me over. The emotions, the memories, the thoughts, I thought I was going to lose it and damn near did.
My T officially left the second week in december, So here I am being 1 month wihtout a T.
And surprisingly its not as bad as I thought it would be. I stuffed everything back into my little box, and tried to wash away the memories, fighting hard for the good stuff to come through. Its pretty much working, except I'm so full of anger.
Today I'm going to try to work up the courage to return to the psychiatrists office and ask her to start me on meds. Somethings just not right with me. I've been so depressed, I can feel it. Here it is thurday morning, and the last time I slept was Sunday night.
I had yet another injection in my hip. Only this time, it did not work out well and I've been on crutches . so not cool. But hopefully when the pain wears off, it will stay off.
And sigh... my sexual identity is throwing my mind for a loop. Do i like her or him? 90% says her, but that 10% is screaming at me, chose a him chose a him. I posted my struggle with this in the LGTBQ forum
Well anyways, wish me luck at my appointment today.