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Posted by FloweringRose  
Maybe I am taking everything too seriously.

But I *do* take you date r*ping someone seriously, even if you're a woman.
And when I'm flashbacking like a nutcase about things *I don't understand* I don't want to have someone on top of me, someone making out with me, someone worse touching me or biting me *shudders*
Yes I *am* in a...
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My Current Low =/

22 January 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
"It rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong,
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're not
...Back up baby back up...did you forget everything?!"

I'm not winning right now. I slipped up last night with SI, not too badly. But I found the tool that I wanted....
It's sick how excited I got :S...
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Crumbling, But Still Here..

20 January 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
Having trouble doing much of anything other than my volunteering (God bless those wonderful people at the home...)

But I'm doing. I've read all my messages...I think o.o...and I know who I haven't replied to and I will. And I'll go in the SI forum.
But I slipped up again last night...so feel unhappy with myself. Loving that girl...
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Shaken But Here

14 January 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
I feel bad I've disappeared for a bit. but I'm not sure I could help it. Suddenly everyone inside seems to be falling apart within a matter of a week. I don't know why, and some of this co-consciousness is resulting in memories leaking and....eek. It's not fun, I only got up today because of my boyfriend, otherwise we would've...
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It's Just Me

06 January 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
Song by Blue October. Keep hearing it in my head, so true..


I lost a piece of me in you;
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I cared quite a lot.

You see but lately I've been on my own.
Yeah one, but one by choice.
You see, that's a first for me,
There's only me, yeah theres only...
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Sad About Love >.<

05 January 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
Why do I still try with love? Every time I do, someone gets hurt, if not everyone.

Seem to poison the virtues love is upheld for. I am no flower, I am just thorns who lost their petals long long ago. The reasons you're still with me shock me, they don't sound like me at all. Maybe you're in love with some painting I made of myself one...
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Posted by FloweringRose  
I don't know why I always doubt my memories, well about the bad things. The good things I can seize to and go "YES OF COURSE THAT'S TRUE!" and dance around it, but the bad ones I just feel nauseous and echo though my head "it can't be, it can't be"

But really..why can't it? I confirmed with mom a memory...
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Posted by FloweringRose  
I just have this urge to walk, the feeling to go out staring at my feet as they go one two, one two. The pounding is always comforting, but at the same time what difference does it makes? It's always the same journey, not really minding where I'm heading except to feel the pavement hit my heels and remind me that I'm still alive,...
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Posted by FloweringRose  
So I WAS going to discuss things earlier. What were they again?

-Self split becoming more apparent
-Possible to establish and then have to re-establish parts? I don't know...
-Feeling shaky and physically ill from thoughts/memories, yet feeling like a liar for opening up too much. Yet I don't open up enough? Mixed messages inside...
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SSI Urges Strong

30 December 2010
Posted by FloweringRose  
No graphic details. Just me wanting to be reckless and get myself into danger =/

Hate these compulsions, hate fighting these urges, hate being obsessed with something SO awful.
Leave me alone please!

Will I never leave behind this part of me? Will I never be able to just get over myself?
I don't even know where this comes from. Who...
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