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Fitful Feelings

06 January 2012
Posted by FloweringRose  
I guess I'm just feeling so much right now I'm overloading. In every way...
About multiple things.

With E I'm just.. f-ck I'm so GRATEFUL she's alive. But I'm scared. I'm scared the voices will take her away from me if the psychiatrist doesn't get her help faster. I'm scared that though she says her plans are...
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Feelings Today

11 November 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
IN quite a bit of pain. Tired, and a sore tummy and so little sleep.
But you know what, kind of happy all at once. I'm riding on a weird buzz after last night for some reason. Breaking the word count, getting along with the others inside, actually saying what I needed to say. And people in my life. Yeah I feel pretty good actually

Fingers...
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Mental Crash

05 November 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
Honestly needing more than we have right now. A lot. Need more support, more space, more energy.

Just drained from it all. And it doesn't help when the left side of your neck feels like it has a "lump" on it or in it (Hard to tell just hurts) and it doesn't really. Or your joints feel.. off.

Ugh.
I don't even know anymore...
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Posted by FloweringRose  
(Poem written by me)

There's a pounding in my mind
That awakes at every morn
What did you expect to find?
From a body used and worn
He's long hung me out to drown
The waters growing near
Funny you see my frown
And still think that hope lives here.

Honey it was never my time,
Never my life, never my voice, never my cries.
Darling, I'm...
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Posted by FloweringRose  
Just using lyrics that struck me this morning, for now. Don't feel like expanding, yet

I knew a boy, he came from the sea
He was the only boy who ever knew the truth, about me
I'm overwhelmed and unders*xed
Baby what did you expect?
[b]I'm over wrought and so disgraced
I'm too ashamed to show my face
And their coming to...
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Feeling...Lost

23 August 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
So, I've stumbled back into the land of Pandy's. I don't know how long I'll stay, since the memories inside are so new. but who knows.

Just feeling off. Sad. Burning. Slightly physically sick. Just the exhausted of knowing something terrible is trying to make itself remembered but it's only half doing it, so you're foot is...
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Really Upset..

08 March 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
I don't *really* want to step down.
But I probably have to because I'm not meeting the time schedules I should. It's not because of anyone else, it's just only fair to everyone.
I always have loved being a mod on here.
I don't know what's wrong with me the last few months.

*tears up*

I can't seem to keep anything I...
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Girlfriend Worries

13 February 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
I'm really a trooper at talking online the last few days...have been going on and on.

Too much inside.
Frazzling.

I am annoyed with my gf's clear "I'm going to shut down so no one will notice I'm falling apart". Meaning she's barely talking to me, insisting she's fine and hiding out from everyone. I know I need...
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Feeling..... Odd.

12 February 2011
Posted by FloweringRose  
I don't have a word for it. I just feel like everything I'm dealing with has changed *again*.

I wonder if I'm actually processing anything even though I know I am, or at least doing my best. It's just all the memories, feelings sensations are all so new/way out of my "normal" range that I almost feel I'm starting...
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Posted by FloweringRose  
Something horrible came up last night...I can't explain how bad.
I'm not sure if it's real.
But it could take everything out of me.

I don't know what's real right now Q-Q This is quite the time for this to happen, on the way to the infinitemind conference -.-" I need all my strength/happiness right now, not this....
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