All Shaky...Afraid of the Inside of Me
My mom tried to get me to hypnotize a family friend today. All I feel is nervous and jumpy just thinking of it. I have to go into trance to get a good hypnotic state going; and NO I don't feel like going into trance right now!!!
I just feel whiney and a failure for refusing to do the hypnosis.
But I'm so illogically scared...
I'm so scared of what's inside me.
Honestly, I'm f**king shaking of fear, just thinking about it.
I also don't want to dream, to zone out, to think too much. No. None of it!
I don't want to be inside me.
Anywhere but inside me.
I'm afraid if I go there I'm not going to come back out...
I hate feeling like this Can't stop shaking