Happy that People Actually Care
Today I had some pretty bad flashbacks. It's weird, when I dissociate into that state I see it *so* clearly and feel it all over me; and then I revert back to "me" and I'm just fine. DID I guess. But still, very disconcerting.
It was really scary being thrown in there by what seemed out of nowhere. But my gf held me through it all, and she still loves me through it. And knowing my bf would do the same, and that everyone here on Pandy's would still care for me...it's wonderful, and it's giving me some strength to be able to stand tall and keep going. Still need therapy I'm sure; but at least I have some loving forces in my life.
It's just a positive of the day I also want to post later about psychosomatic pain (as a reminder to myself). I'm dealing with like mad this month and I want to make sure I'm not crazy. Guess they really might be body memories If so that's scary...but at least I won't be messed up.
Hope things keep getting better. Day by day I'm doing this.