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Posted by JadeAngel , 08 December 2015 · 105 views

I don't know what I'd do if I lost my marriage too. I thought I could finally have a happy life. I'm not sure I'm meant to be. Maybe I won't wake up. But I wouldn't be so lucky


Feeling overwhelmed

Posted by JadeAngel , 04 August 2015 · 156 views

A year ago today, I had to let go of my lost pregnancy. So I want to say that's the reason my mind is spinning and I'm feeling out of control, but it's not. So they didn't detect anymore noticeable cancer in my full body scan after the radiation. I should be happy, feel relieved, and get to moving on with my life, right? But I feel... stuck. Every day is...



Posted by JadeAngel , 10 April 2015 · 156 views

Radiation was this morning. My daughter knows what is going on, and has a decent understanding of what all it involves. She and my husband will spend the next few days at my mother's house because I can not be around anyone. I'm sure she's excited to spend some time at her grandmother's, but she was nearly in tears this morning, saying how much she'll mis...


Fuck cancer!

Posted by JadeAngel , 10 March 2015 · 172 views

I want to escape my life for a few weeks. Symptoms are back in full swing. All the fatigue, pains, depression, moodiness, head aches are all just piled on again. Since I found out I might have cancer, through confirming it and the surgeries... I maybe only cried twice. Mostly because it just didn't bother me that much compared to other things I've been th...


It's cancer.

Posted by JadeAngel , 13 February 2015 · 248 views

What a day. Everyone is posting about it being friday the 13th. Yeah. So... a year ago today I had my first miscarriage (I had 2 in 2014). So, why not pile more on? My oncologist called this morning with the pathology results. I have cancer. I am having a 2nd surgery on monday to remove the rest of my thyroid, then a round of RAI (whenever that will be)....


Don't know how to feel

Posted by JadeAngel , 28 January 2015 · 170 views

They came back suspicious for cancer. I am consulting with an oncological surgeon the day after tomorrow. My thoughts are all over the place. I want to say I'm not concerned about the cancer, but when I think about the high chance of reoccurence even decades later, and the other health implimentations this surgery may bring about down the line... well it...


Facing the prospect of cancer for the 2nd time this year

Posted by JadeAngel , 19 December 2014 · 275 views

They found nodules on my thyroid and a lung during the CT scan to figure out what's wrong with me. The one on my lung seems not to worry them because of the size, my age, and that I've never smoked. They sent me in for an ultrasound on my thyroid. They found a couple nodules on my right thyroid, one of which could possibly be cancerous because of the size...


So powerless

Posted by JadeAngel , 03 December 2014 · 219 views

I really don't want to be home alone today. My daughter is at school, my husband is at work. I hope he gets vto. I'm alone with my thoughts and that's not good right now. I was putting my test results together in one document so my sister in law and her husband can get some opinions from their doctor friends. I was going over the ultrasound from the ER th...


Nothing but dead ends

Posted by JadeAngel , 01 December 2014 · 111 views

I'm sick of being in the dark. No one knows what the hell is wrong with me. 44 days with a continuous low grade fever, and the last few weeks I'm always in pain. The tests are all negative, except a few tests with elevated levels of one thing or another. But those few are very generic and all point to inflammation. As though the pain didn't point to that...


More not knowing

Posted by JadeAngel , 25 November 2014 · 136 views

I finally got in to see the specialist yesterday. She can't tell what I have either. She ordered a battery of tests. They took dozens of vials of blood. I checked today, but no results yet. I'm also going in for some ct scans in just over a week. She doesn't think it's an infection. She's leaning towards an autoimmune disorder or cancer. I can't say I'm n...

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