Things are looking a little brighter in my world. I have an apartment that I will be moving into in a couple weeks or so. It's only a one bedroom. My son will have the bedroom and I will sleep in the living room. It's a severe down grade from my previous life style but it's a roof over my head. I have been working almost full time for over a month now. It is a min wage job but it's still some income and it will pay the rent. I don't cry every single day over the loss of my soul mate. That has been a huge step forward. I think about him constantly but I'm moving toward anger and resentment over the loss of him now.
I have started putting more and more into the hands of Jesus. I can't handle it all myself. I've been a religious person most of my life but I tend to want to control everything. I'm trying to Walk in Faith more. It's hard but handing my problems over has given me a little more peace and less anxiety.