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As long as there is life there is hope...someone wrote this on my blog for me. I'm teaching myself Italian. :thumbsup:

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Posted by Soulstar  
As long as there is life there is hope...someone wrote this on my blog for me. I'm teaching myself Italian. :thumbsup:

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Posted by Soulstar  
:thumbsup: Went for a hike with my worker "Angel" my housemate and his Mom while my bf got some much needed rest. The sun shone on my skin making it warm and tingly..my white face my actually be off-white tomorrow. :yahoo:
One day at a time. Oh and I ran into some old friend at The Thrift Store and hung-out for awhile. :yahoo: ...
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16 April 2012
Posted by Soulstar  
I got up @ 6am...realized R>S> had called 2x from upstairs went up there....didn't "do much" :thumbsup: now it's 7:51 and now it's 7:52...

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feeling defeated

15 April 2012
Posted by Soulstar  
need a hug......................
yea!!!!!for all the encouraging supportive people.........my life is just too much drama and not enough zen.....enough said?????????rt now I hate details....................Zoexx :blush:

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feeling defeated

15 April 2012
Posted by Soulstar  
need a hug......................
yea!!!!!for all the encouraging supportive people.........my life is just too much drama and not enough zen.....enough said?????????rt now I hate details....................Zoexx :blush:

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Posted by Soulstar  
Mac proposed last Tuesday:) A blue sapphire sterling silver ring and he is a greast guy...for real this time. He's sensitive and it causes him pain to know how much I've been hurt by abuse but I think I left out rape....or the exact degree and amounts of times and who. I tried the first time story yesterday but chickened out. I just...
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Posted by Soulstar  
it's almost 2am...no where need sleep.
Currently reading "The HOST" by Stephanie Meyer's.
I did do the whole twilight thing but perfect love from an old fashioned vampire no longer holds my interest. I am looking forward to the next movie in her epic Vampire, werewolf, human trilogy.
They even have an other book on the cullen and...
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Posted by Soulstar  
The last perp was my fiance of almost 4 yrs.....it was horrifically violent.I wish it had only been 1 perp.....not 3. I pray someone will respond......I've made friends on hear that were able to move on. God bless them though how I miss them so........but I need more support and am an awesome friend in return. If especially anyone has been...
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Posted by Soulstar  
Natasha's sweet....but I've been haunted by my ex for-ever more. I want to break free, not fear him or flinch @ his name no sleep b/c I , in my sleep pulled the chain lock of my door.........duh.....so Mac stayed with me. Feel little rejections from 'community group but maybe it's all in my head, I have been feeling down lately....
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Greatful

27 December 2010
Posted by Soulstar  
I was glad to have my family and feel mostly comfy looky a classy sexy, but think, "uh, oh...another dysfunctional relationship." more to follow...saw my ex-fiancee in a wooded area...didn't scare me, but diagnosed sociopathic personalities are known as Charming.....and deadly fml wtfrig is wrong with...
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Posted by Soulstar  
I still have your poem

you wrote with no one in particular in mind

before we met

and then you said it reminded you of me

and then sweet Lord that party drug night of premarital extasy

and I do wish I could figure out why I couldn't hold onto a nice, cutie pie like you

But the abusive mother fucker he came back time and time again

but I...
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BASIC HISTORY

09 October 2010
Posted by Soulstar  
HE PROPOSED MARRIAGE IN MARCH..THE 4TH TO BE EXACT...............
OCT 27 HE PUT BOTH STRONG HANDS AROUND MY NECK AND LEFT SIX HAND PRINTS
TWO MONTHS L8TER I FORGAVE
POOR GUY IN JAIL FOR TWO MONTHS
LITTLE DID I KNOW HE'D BEEN CREEPING AND SLEEPIN AROUND
MY HEART, SOUL, MIND WERE TRUE
MORE THAN A FEW TIMES HE POURED BEER ON MY HEAD
CHOSE HIS...
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My New Job.....

25 August 2010
Posted by Soulstar  
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"Good reputation" Victoria said , "I've never heard anyone at S. (my future workplace)

say anything bad about you. And people gossip here like they do at any other job. "

So I'm #12 on the waiting list then one month there and she said she likes getting to know me, that she likes to know who...
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21 August 2010
Posted by Soulstar  
I moved to a new City..well I moved from a city to a small town all on my on and sometimes I feel it gave me strength but being so far away from family and friends ...........sometimes it makes me feel weak.......I was singing with everyone in Church last Sun day and the lyric's went something like this "God sent the weak to lead the...
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Posted by Soulstar  
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I moved to a new City..well I moved from a city to a small town all on my on and sometimes I feel it gave me strength but being so far away from family and friends ...........sometimes it makes me feel weak.......I was singing with everyone in Church last Sun day and the lyric's went something like this "God sent the weak to lead...
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new drug

21 August 2010
Posted by Soulstar  
it had been weeks since i slept through the night frm 10:30pm til 5am i slept on this pill but im all hung over and slow and thirsty.........oh.and im so sick of people makin' excuses.not out here.....in real life so to speak......... :blink:

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21 August 2010
Posted by Soulstar  
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"AND WHAT'S SOOOOOOOO SMALL 2 U,

IS SO LARGE TO ME,

AND IF IT'S THE LAST THING I DO,

I'LL MAKE U SEE"----SONG OF DAVID

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John 10:10

11 July 2010
Posted by Soulstar  
Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the *stars*. The stars are always there. We miss them in the dirt and in the clouds. We miss them in storms. Tell them to remember Hope. We have Hope.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10

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Posted by Soulstar  
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TALKING, TXT'IN SHANE NICE , 24, MAC YELLED @ ME ON THE STREET TODAY, JEREMY AND THE STONE LADY R RIGHT, I SHOULDN'T BE IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR A YR. JEREMY SAYS I'LL BE ALL "CAM, CAM, CAM" AND "NO SOULSTAR" ASND THE ROCK LADY SAID I'D ATTRACT THE SAME NEGATIVE ENERGY. NABI'S BF LIVES IN GUELPH WE HUNG...
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