I'm in the midst of trying to decide what is important, or maybe which is more important really. Can I make it enough to simply put my feelings out there even if he doesn't see my words or do I really need him to know how much he hurt me? At the moment I'm saying he needs to know but why. Why do I so badly need him to know? Is it more that I hope he will be hurt or do I really need him to see my words, to feel my pain. What happens if he isn't hurt. How much more will that hurt me? Somehow I really need to make it enough to put my feelings out there and spare us both.