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Entries in March 2015
06 Mar Goodbye for now. I love you all. *TW* CSA, Sui, SH, swearing 7 Comments
Entries in February 2015
15 Feb Family dilemmas, being human. Bit of a pity party at the end..... 11 Comments
13 Feb The safest of therapy sessions 8 Comments
12 Feb *TW* swearing and a plea for support. 9 Comments
09 Feb Realisations about childhood attachment and my adult attachment issues- as highlighted in therapy! 9 Comments
08 Feb The amazing feeling when something clicks, and things start to make sense. 6 Comments
07 Feb Understanding the split, why I MUST see my therapist on Thursday and not run away. Edited to add my rational realisation 3 Comments
06 Feb Therapy- the evidence of my irrational thoughts and how I hate my T today. *TW* Sui and swearing. Edited to add text to T, and her response 9 Comments
Entries in January 2015
31 Jan The descent back to hell. *TW* CSA reference, SH, Sui mention 17 Comments
29 Jan Therapy never quite goes to plan.....*TW* SA and Sui mention 4 Comments
25 Jan ARG! *TW* ED, SH, CSA and sex 12 Comments
23 Jan The importance of perspective. How my therapy is helping me. 2 Comments
18 Jan And now- the miracle of healing *TW* Sex, CSA mention 3 Comments
09 Jan Calm after the storm. Why therapy works for me 7 Comments
08 Jan When therapy hurts 8 Comments
06 Jan Some home truths. 7 Comments
04 Jan Possibly the last letter to my T, healing continues *TW* suicide mention 7 Comments
02 Jan *TW* might trigger sexual references 10 Comments
01 Jan A busy head *TW* CSA, Sui mention 6 Comments
Entries in December 2014
29 Dec *TW* pathetic Sui ramble. Just need to vent. 11 Comments
27 Dec Anger 9 Comments
26 Dec To much time to think about therapy. 2 Comments
21 Dec I had no choice TW CSA 1 Comments
05 Dec Thank you The Samaritans *TW* CSA 6 Comments
Entries in November 2014
30 Nov The confusion of being well groomed by a gentle abuser *TW* CSA, Edited to add sad realisation 17 Comments
28 Nov Serious CSA trigger warning 3 Comments
26 Nov Victim- why do I shudder so at that word...? 11 Comments
22 Nov A tenuous thread *TW* CSA description 1 Comments
20 Nov Tonight's therapy. The home straight maybe....? *TW* CSA, SH 1 Comments
19 Nov When erotic transference rears its head again *TW* sexual talk and CSA mention 2 Comments
16 Nov Letter to my T *TW* Sex/masturbation 7 Comments
15 Nov Sensate Focus Therapy *TW* CSA, Sex talk, rape 11 Comments
15 Nov What's the point? Possible *TW* CSA mention and extreme self pity party! 6 Comments
09 Nov Self pitying ramble - assume all triggers from ED to SH to Sui 11 Comments
Entries in October 2014
26 Oct So, what happened when I first tried Sensate Focus *TW* CSA, Swearing 7 Comments
25 Oct Healing 3 Comments
24 Oct And so the anger rises *TW* sex 5 Comments
21 Oct Wrestling with faith *TW* CSA 1 Comments
16 Oct Exploiting the loopholes *TW* Sui, CSA (and probably swearing and maybe SH too) 6 Comments
15 Oct The Child with my birth name *TW* CSA Sui SH 8 Comments
11 Oct Poem of hope and love for my T 1 Comments
09 Oct Todays T. *TW* CSA, Rape,Swearing 9 Comments
07 Oct *TW* Swearing. Transference issues in therapy. Again. 12 Comments
04 Oct My story, part 3 MASSIVE *TW* graphic CSA, swearing 6 Comments
04 Oct Whose feelings are these anyway? *TW* CSA (mild) 13 Comments
Entries in September 2014
28 Sep My Story Part 2 *TW* rape etc. Seriously, don't read if vulnerable 10 Comments
27 Sep My Story *TW* rape etc. Seriously, don't read if vulnerable 19 Comments
25 Sep Little girl lost *TW* rape, CSA, porn 11 Comments
22 Sep The Darkness *TW* Sui 7 Comments
21 Sep Letter to T *TW* CSA, SH, Swearing 16 Comments

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