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Please help me get back on track

Posted by BattenbergPrincess , 07 January 2014 · 165 views

I've been doing so so well. Other than passing out with anxiety, I really have been coping so well this past month or so. That is until today. 
 
That's because today I went to the doctor's and had a vaginal examination. This brought back so many memories, just the sheer terror and pain of when I was raped. And it's completely knocked me off tra...


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Am I a nympho?

Posted by BattenbergPrincess , 19 December 2013 · 184 views

Sex. I just want sex. I don't want a relationship, I don't want feelings, I don't want emotions. Just sex.
 
Or maybe I do want an emotional relationship. I'm just too scared to trust someone else. 
I just want to be in control of the situation and if I'm not I think I'd fall apart. 
 
But after I was raped I was scared of boys and mal...


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Finally I see a future

Posted by BattenbergPrincess , 27 November 2013 · 117 views

I've been suffering with anxiety as a result of PTSD for quite some time. But now, my anxiety is decreasing, my depression has faded and life seems so much brighter now. I am a Christian and this past year has only made my faith stronger. I believe in every mess there is a message, and he that is in me is greater than he that is in the world. 
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They grow so fast

Posted by BattenbergPrincess , 10 October 2013 · 86 views

I have a little sister called Grace. She's 7 years old and she's a total pain. But that pain means the absolute world to me. Her innocence and pleasure in the simplest of things has got me through the worst of times. When I give her a kiss goodnight and see those big baby blue eyes staring back at me, I remember why I keep on fighting. That little...


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Non epileptic seizures

Posted by BattenbergPrincess , 02 October 2013 · 143 views

Ok so I've mentioned before that I suffered from non epileptic seizures as a result of post traumatic stress disorder. Well they went away for several months and now it seems like they're coming back. I was just wondering if anyone else suffers from them or knows anything about them? I'm really struggling as I just want to get my life back on...


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I love you D.M

Posted by BattenbergPrincess , 24 September 2013 · 99 views

I've been in and out of a relationship with one of my best friends for over a year. We really have a very volatile and unpredictable relationship, because I'm so emotionally damaged. I wasn't the perfect girlfriend, but then the perfect girlfriend doesn't exist. We met in year 10 at school, the year before I was raped. I know he wants thin...


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Little girl lost

Posted by BattenbergPrincess , 23 September 2013 · 99 views

Ok, here goes nothing. I'm hoping to find people who understand what I've gone through. It's also reassuring to know I'm not the only one out there. Right now, I feel ill. Depressed. Sick. Anxious. However you want to phrase it. I am really struggling and it just feels like it'll never get better. I just want to stay inside all day and...





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