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My Journey is taking it's time, but it's going.

Posted by TheSilentWanderer , 27 January 2015 · 232 views

At this time in my journey of a survivor of both sexual abuse and sexual assault, I have realized that everything is a process and time does heal your wounds. Going on 7 years since the sexual abuse by Daniel, I have seen in myself that I have truly healed from the pain he caused me. I am forgiving him not because he deserves it, nor I want to give him fo...


I really don't know.

Posted by TheSilentWanderer , 02 August 2013 · 160 views

I haven't been on this site in a while, and things seem to be looking up,
however, it's like two steps back. I have a new boyfriend now, and he's wonderful,
But I just don't know. Every time we're kissing I freak out and I just can't help it. I'm afraid he'll get tired of the fact what happened and leave me. I'm actual...


I give up.

Posted by TheSilentWanderer , 24 May 2013 · 231 views

I just got told by a detective that the only reason I called it rape was because I was scared I might be pregnant. We have several pieces of evidence that he did this to not only me, but someone else. My police service treated it like a joke. He's gotten away with my rape. When I found out I stormed out of the room. I just didn't know what to thin...


Strange Dreams

Posted by TheSilentWanderer , 18 May 2013 · 163 views

I'm starting to sleep better, but last night was strange. I don't know either to call this a dream or a nightmare. I remember going to school, and I see him. I saw myself beginning to freak out. When he came near, I began getting really fighty. But then it changed. I saw myself sitting with other people. But then I saw two hands coming behind me,...


I feel.. stuck.

Posted by TheSilentWanderer , 17 May 2013 · 176 views

I don't know, I put up two fronts. When I'm out volunteering I pretend to be happy. But when I'm alone, I turn to the real side of myself. It's like a doll with two faces. I've met 3 new people where I'm helping out, but I can't speak about what happened when they ask me why I left school, it just brings back too many memories,...



Posted by TheSilentWanderer , 15 May 2013 · 95 views

I don't know how to really put it. I feel if I vent here, I can feel a bit better. I don't understand myself anymore.
He gets to live his life and go to school. I'm forced to stay home because I'm terrified of seeing him. I'm only 16 years old, I should be out enjoying life, but instead I'm in a ball crying my eyes out because he...

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