You're all snuggled up. Pillow under your head. Friend by your side. Holoding your hand, stroking your head, gently brushing your hair from your eyes. No noise, just peace, and light. You close your eyes, you see and feel light all around you. You sink into sleep, feeling safe, feeling loved...
So, maybe they are the voice I hear in my head, but what I hear in my heart is this:
Imagine there is a candle. Lit, on the coffee table in front of us. It's flickering, and the flame is growing. It glows, and the glow surrounds us. It is warm, it is safe. The glow is b...
I know you don't remember me
Not really, no, I'm sorry
Ok, let me help you remember
Oh, yeah hi Shape, you look better! much better!
Yes, I got a little stronger
That's great, I'm so glad. I'm happy for you. So you're safe? Someone's taking care of you?
Yes, I'm safe. She's safe too and much s...
Oh look who's here. Was it too warm for you this time?
Can you please listen to me for a minute?
I've been listening to you for way too long. I'm not playing your games anymore.
So now you're listening to them? They tell you to do this to yourself and you just listen and do what they say?...
Fuck off. Fuck you! Leave me the fuck alone. What are you staring at?
Get up please. Clean the wounds. Eve, get up.
Fuck off. Fuck you. Fuck your light. Fuck your stories. I hate you.
I know. Get up ok? Come Iíll show you something.
I donít want you to show me your shit anymore.
Itís not my shit, itís your shit.
Fuck you! You want to...
Eve, listen to me, it's important. Here, look, I will warm you up, you're freezing. Come closer please we don't have much time.
Please don't hurt me ok?
I won't. Promise. Ok, that...
I canít. They are very strong. They...
Remember the BBQ shapes from Coles?
What are you talking about?! What do you want?
I was thinking
Oh, hallucinations can do that?
I don't know ask your hallucinations.
That's what I'm doing. daa
I'm not your hallucination, stop insulting me.
Denial. Get it....
Forgive these words I'm yet to speak
I feel so ashamed
Right now you seem so far away
So much confusion clouds my mind
And I don't know which path to take
You'll help me to be brave
Yes, I think we need to talk.
Ok great. What the fuck happened today?
Your healing happened.
Oh so you call it healing? I have never experienced such powerful detailed flashbacks. WTF? You let them rape me again, beat me, hurt me, torture me. All of them. You made me go through a pure horror. Is this your understandin...
Do it. I have my drugs, so fuuuuck, fuck, what the fuck, stop it, fuck you. You think I won't get up or what? fuck you and your fucking back pain. Here see, I don't give a shit about your fuuuuuck fucking pain. Stop it.
School starts on Monday.
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