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Too Much To Take In

Posted by eliseinwonderland , 16 April 2013 · 54 views

I feel like there's too much going on in right now for me to properly absorb and deal with. The Boston shooting really shook me up, not only is it a tragedy that people lost their lives because some idiot decided to shoot off bombs, but it also brings to light what people in places like the Middle East have to deal with on the daily.

I just can't...


It's Only Wednesday

Posted by eliseinwonderland , 10 April 2013 · 74 views

...and it's already been an awful week. I don't know how I'm going to make it to Friday.

I knew it was going to be hard seeing both of the boys again after a lovely, relaxing Spring Break, but I had no idea how hard it would hit me. One of the girls who used to be my friend, who was THERE when they did this to me, who lied to the detective to...


Maybe This Will Take a Lifetime

Posted by eliseinwonderland , 08 April 2013 · 48 views

The healing/recovery process seems to be taking forever and a day. I feel that every victory or moment of strength I have is followed by more pain and difficulty. It's so hard to just put what happened out of my mind. Everything reminds me of it and it hurts.

Today is my first day back from spring break. I have to see the boys who did this to me ever...


Therapeutic Thoughts

Posted by eliseinwonderland , 24 January 2013 · 66 views

**TW: mention of SI and some violent things**

It used to be that when I was having too hard a time at school I would retreat into the bathroom and SI or just cry. I always knew that this was unhealthy but I really had no idea how to cope with the triggers around me or the panic attacks that I was having.

Finally, after a couple months I realized that w...


I Love The Weekends

Posted by eliseinwonderland , 21 January 2013 · 44 views

I love the solitude and peace they offer, and this weekend is three days so there's even more to go around!

If anything positive came out of all of this (which I'm always SO hesitant to say) it's that I spend more time at home with my family. Last year I was out and about as much as I could be, purposefully limiting my amount of time at h...


Tired of Being Blamed

Posted by eliseinwonderland , 17 January 2013 · 57 views

The most shocking thing to me after this all happened was the lack of belief and the loss of support.
Because of what happened, I had already lost a lot of my friends, but to have people that weren't even involved say "you were drunk so it couldn't have been r*pe" is just disturbing.
To be taunted and called a sl*t at school by the m...

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