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Posted by Simpletruth   in Personal
If you become my height,
That'll be the final straw...
Closer to what I'm pretending not to think...
Closer to what I'm pretending doesn't exist.
Like doesn't lead to love.
It doesn't.
It doesn't, right?
Right.
Great.

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Ruined.Tired.Dying.

07 June 2013
Posted by Simpletruth   in Personal
That was the last straw.
Hope that I didn't have has gone.
I loved him.
I love him?
It doesn't matter.
I probably can't run away even.
I tried so damn hard.
So damn hard.
I know that they're there in the kitchen.
I just want to pick them up.
And erase the pain

Please, someone, anyone, rescue me?
It hurts so bad I can barely taste...
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Venting.

25 February 2013
Posted by Simpletruth   in Personal
I miss you.
I miss you so much.
There's no one to talk to.
No kind words.
God exists.
And I'm eternally grateful.
But I miss your ever-present presence.
I really thought you'd be the common denominator in my life.
Always.
This month has been terrible in that regard.
Loneliness.
The isolation is sickening.
I really need close...
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Cut me open?

16 January 2013
Posted by Simpletruth   in Uncategorized, Personal
Just remove all the bad stuff.
The disgusting parts.
The me I hate.
But then again isn't that all the parts?
Sigh.
I hate myself so much.
Disgust seeps through every pore.
And they're angry words.
And mental apologies are generated.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
I'm sorry that I think I'm worthless.
I'm trying so hard to be normal.
So...
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Tags: Worthless, stupid, foolish

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Cut me open?

16 January 2013
Posted by Simpletruth   in Uncategorized, Personal
Just remove all the bad stuff.
The disgusting parts.
The me I hate.
But then again isn't that all the parts?
Sigh.
I hate myself so much.
Disgust seeps through every pore.
And they're angry words.
And mental apologies are generated.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
I'm sorry that I think I'm worthless.
I'm trying so hard to be normal.
So...
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Tags: Worthless, stupid, foolish

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Thanks

13 January 2013
Posted by Simpletruth   in Personal
I sit in your office squirming.
Because I know what you're about to do.
"Childhood trauma"? You say in that voice. Like I'm making it up. Like it doesn't qualify. Like its not important. I already know that I'm being foolish. I don't need help to think that.
So thanks.
Thanks for belittling me. I needed that.
Thanks...
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Sigh

13 December 2012
Posted by Simpletruth   in Personal
I'm not allowed to feel this way.
It wasn't that bad.
So stop feeling sorry for yourself.
I sit on this forum full of hurt people
And stare at my own hands in disgust.
I'm not ruined enough to fit in here.
I'm not broken enough.
In my own head I'm shattered.
But the comparisons don't add up.
Please,
Someone help me,
While...
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Two words

06 October 2012
Posted by Simpletruth   in Personal
Two words.
They resonate repeatedly.
Over and over.
Over and over.
Im petrified of them.
I'm scared.
I'm scared.
Two words.
Two words.
Just two words. :(

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Posted by Simpletruth   in Personal
What does this even mean??
I'm scared and confused and overwhelmed.
It cannot possibly be true.
Can it?

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Sorry

23 August 2012
Posted by Simpletruth   in Personal
He tickled me.
It was uncontrollable.
It was fun.
But then I wanted him to stop.
But I couldn't do it properly.
I can still feel his hands.
I know that I shouldn't.
I'm sorry.

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